Week 6 : HearzCompass(ion)

So we turned to Mandino’s Scroll 2.

Getting to my core-business now:Kiss

‘I will greet this day with love in my heart

Last week, a few days before we changed to this scroll, and after having read in the first scroll for 30 days, 3 times a day ‘I walk tall among men and they know me not, for today I am a new (wo)man, with a new life’ — the sentence that resonated most with me, also since this is really about changing that old overdue blue-print, right down into the core of the DNA so to speak — I went to my chiropractor.

I go there once a month, so last time he saw me before that was just after I started this MasterKey-Experience, and right after the very first readings of this sentence. He is an extremely intuitive guy, that can ‘look inside your head and read your energies’. For example: a few years ago, quite some time before I composed my very first piece and was not even really thinking about starting it, he said out off the blue (I never told him that maybe one day I might become a composer): ‘So when are you finally going to write down all those sounds that are inside your head?’ That kind of therapist.

Also, when I go there, I never have to tell him what is bothering me, he just puts his hands where it is needed and starts to work. And it’s always spot on. He knows and follows me and helps me evolving now for about 15 years.

So last week, one month later, I’m there, and he does the usual half hour of treatment — lots on the stomach, by the way, that famous Solar(com)plexus of mine that has been worked on so hard the last few weeks … but I did not tell him that, he just felt it — and then he said ‘You really evolved quite a bit since last time, amazing, I’m getting completely different information from your energies, it’s almost as if I have been working on a completely different person‘.

…….. well yes, he knew me not for that day, as every day, I was a new woman with a new life……

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Indélébile
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And right after that, he said something about now the heart-center being challenged — due to old traumatic stuff that is ‘next in line’…..

Ouch. Ah yes, THAT old stuff, that I feel is there, under the surface, but still did not want to make itself ‘namable’. Feels like it is engraved a bit too deep though… non-deletable…

But OK, on with it, focussing my mind on cleaning it out.

And of course, BAM! (that’s THE MasterKeyExpression, I noticed, by the way 🙂 ), a few days later we turn to the scroll about ‘the heart’ (I actually was wondering already some time about when ‘love’ and ‘heart’ were going to be addressed….).

So at first, I was really over the moon, THIS is what I’m about, this is MY subject, the frequencies of the heart, the ‘Hearz‘…..! So I felt like completely in my element.

But….. BAM, again, though this time with another meaning. Resistance set in. That old part that is getting focussed on now, does everything to play hide-and-seek and is doing it’s stubborn best to break my intentions and energies. Messing up just about everything, interfering wherever it can.

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Confusion
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It’s quite confusing. Everything flips from one end of the spectrum, creating wonderful, sparkling little miracles and joyous events when I go out and address everyone with a silent ‘I love you’, to me being filled with doubts and fears and even physically feeling ‘ill’.

My inner compass is at times pointing at all directions at the same time, it seems.

OK then, ‘first aid first’: putting myself in the middle of my compass, and let it turn all around me if it wants, I love it to bits, oh yeah, but gonna love myself even a little bit more now, unconditionally. Determined to create a new magnetic center, and field, from the heart. My WHOLE heart: including the bits and pieces that are still fearfully and painfully resisting and therefor do not ‘resonate’ yet with that updated version of me. (and that discrepancy makes them sound even more ‘off’ at the moment. burks.)

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Introspection
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So: a time for introspection. Looking for that new compass: (music) The range of notes of a musical instrument or voice, that will enrich my Rainbow even more once the sun comes out again.

4 thoughts on “Week 6 : HearzCompass(ion)

  1. Luc Griffet

    Great post Dominica, your story with your chiropractor gave me goose bumps 🙂 Yes, you are sharp on the spot: everything starts with loving ourselves…and aren’t these bits and pieces that are still fearfully and painfully resisting and therefore do not ‘resonate’ yet with that updated version of you, also a part of you? What about sending them all your love too? Be sure that they deserve it for what they did for you in the past and/or for what they will do for you in the future…And this is the same for each one of us, so thank you for this deep sharing of your personal experience which enlight us all!

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    1. dominica8 Post author

      thank you! And oh, ‘rest assured’, my dear guide 😉 of course I love all those bits to bits, actually I’m once again over the moon with joy that they finally are showing themselves to me — feel ‘comfortable enough’ to be seen and addressed by the rest of me. I have been trying to put my finger on some of them already for, what, half my life, but I guess I first needed to be ‘upgraded’ to have the strength and wisdom, and the quality of unconditional love to have ‘access’ to them. They are no different than I was myself …. 😉 …. And writing this was actually very therapeutic, I had a lot of resistance to start the blog, but it was planned in my Oats, and oh boy DO I keep my promises 🙂 ….. didn’t know how to start, but then once it was ‘rolling’, it became all clear, and I felt a LOT better and encouraged again afterwards. Thank you, MKMMA … WHAT a blessing.

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  2. Mani

    What powerful and personal writing…. you are changing from the inside out… the only way to change. Your honesty is inspiring… and helps me to get a bit braver. Onward sista 🙂

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